Today is all about forgiving myself, being humble and starting over. I’ve been on Medifast for 5 weeks now, and last Wednesday I had lost 91/2 pounds…YEAH! But I really wanted that last 1/2 pound so that I could say to the world “I’ve lost 10 pounds in 5 weeks on Medifast” (that number just sounded better). I hopped on the scale the next day and found I’d gained 2 pounds! How could this happen!?!? It was soooo unfair! I stewed all through the day. The scale had won. Other things didn’t go my way on this bleak and woeful day - the wind blew too hard, thereby ruining my fishing/swimming excursion at
Needless to say, I felt defeated. Later that night I found myself staring into a jar of peanut butter…for a looong time. I’m not sure when it happened but I reached for a spoon - and it was all downhill after that. The next morning I was racked with guilt. I had not had a bout of emotional eating in several months.
Identifying the watch signs that lead up to it all feels important now. And forgiving myself even more so. The old me would beat myself up so much that I would give up my weight loss goals completely. Thank God I’ve grown beyond that one. I accept that I’m human, flawed, and complicated. I know there will be days when I stumble. But the difference today is that I can forgive myself and start anew. I can even find the humor in it. I can share my struggles with you and together we can all forge ahead.
OK, so I’ve just had a strawberry 70 shake. It’s a postcard day today, I think I’ll take a walk by the shore. The vastness of the ocean reminds me how small I really am on this planet. Mother Nature brings my ego into its proper proportion in such a beautiful and gentle way. Today I’ll be grateful for 9 1/2 pounds. I hope you can be gentle and loving with yourselves today.
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